Carry me Lord Jesus...my inner GPS won't work without you

It is official....I am officially a single woman now. Officially divorced on January 7, 2011. It is a bittersweet feeling, yet I am excited about what the future holds for me. I am happy. Not about the fact that I am divorced, but happy that things are settled. I know that there is still the possibility for issues to arise, but I now feel a little more in control of my life. A feeling I have not felt in a year. No, in 20 years....wow. It is hard to believe that for the last 20 years, I have been attached to someone. This is the first time in my life that I have been on my own....and yet I'm really not on my own. First of all I have these 4wonderful children to care for. And that is something I will never be regretful of. They are my joy!

But mostly I am not alone, for I have an awesome heavenly father. God has brought me sooooo far! He has always been there with me, but in the last year I have felt Him even more, on a daily basis. It reminds me of the footprints in the sand poem.



Footprints

One night I had a dream--
I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord
and across the sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene I noticed two sets of footprints,
one belonged to me and the other to the Lord.
When the last scene of my life flashed before me,
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
I noticed that many times along the path of my life,
there was only one set of footprints.
I also noticed that it happened at the very lowest
and saddest times in my life.
This really bothered me and I questioned the Lord about it.
"Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you,
you would walk with me all the way,
but I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life
there is only one set of footprints.
"I don't understand why in times when I needed you most,
you should leave me."
The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child,
I love you and I would never, never leave you
during your times of trial and suffering.
"When you saw only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you."

...Mary Stevenson



I know He has always been there, and looking back I realize that in those hardest times, He was there carrying me. Otherwise I never would have made it on my own.

So now, in this newest found freedom, what next????? Whatever is next, I pray for God to lead me....or as stated before..to carry me. For I cannot do this on my own. I would be a hot mess if I even attempted it. So carry me Lord Jesus for my feet are tired and weary and I don't even know the way there. Be my GPS for life, showing me where to make those necessary U-turns.

So stay tuned folks...who knows where my new life will take me....wherever I go, you can be assured that it will be just as busy and crazy as it always has been. And I am trusting that God is gonna get me there...so carry me Lord Jesus...my inner GPS won't work without you....